Today is filled with rain and gloom outside. It is cold, wet and non-inviting. As I sit at my computer, thoughts go thru my mind. I find myself trying to decide what to make for dinner. Should I start a load of laundry? Do the bathrooms need cleaned again? Not long ago, my morning consisted of excessive amounts of work to do at my job. I would have already stopped for my morning Starbuck's and had my morning meeting. I would have already answered about 50 emails and talked to numerous customers on the phone. But now I find myself in a quiet house pondering the thoughts of should I make spaghetti or meatloaf for dinner. What a strange world I now exist in.
Then it hits me. Almost daily I find myself missing my fast paced life, but at the same time loving my new existance as a housewife and stay-at-home mom. It is nice to be sitting here doing what I want everyday and not following the agenda of my employer. But at the same time, I hope I am not losing a part of myself in the process. Although I am excited to pick up my daughter from school everyday and spend precious time with her in the afternoon, I wonder if I was created for a higher purpose. I feel that I have gifts and talents that go beyond the scope of laundry, cooking, and cleaning. But what is it? What is my calling?
I will continue to ponder this today and possibly everyday until my calling comes calling! I wonder, has anyone else ever felt the same way? What if we created a community of women who helped one another fullfill our purpose?
Please share your stories... as I will continue to share mine.
~Janet
this is a great time for you to think up your million dollar idea!!! i'm sure you'll come up with something good! :)
ReplyDeleteI don't think God has any greater calling then wife and mother. What you are doing now may seem mundane, but it's your highest calling for this time in your life! Sure God wants us to have hobbies and things we love to do. But right now, you are fullfilling your greatest calling.
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